He was oppressed and afflicted, yet he did not open his mouth; he was led like a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before her shearers is silent, so he did not open his mouth. Isa 53:7
How can HE possibly remain silent?
Being accused, being wronged etc are things which I cannot "swallow" and keep silent yet Being accused to the extend of facing death, Jesus said not a word. What kept Him from defending? Could it be "He knew that was the very purpose HE came for"? Maybe it was because He loves the people so much that His life was no longer His own. It should certainly speak of complete obedience and submission to the Father HE loves.
2010年8月21日星期六
Where do i go from here?
"So lost" has been bombing my mind. I am "clueless" and "restless". On the verge of giving up when God appeared in the least expected way. Someone came along and asked me - how have your season been? Go back and experience that season that you once worked on. The season of intimacy with God. Clarity will surely come. Go.. go and experience that which you have lost, He will surely come through.
2010年5月13日星期四
The "bad" is included in HIS "all"
1 less bad experience = 1 less lens/filter. Every experience we go through in life becomes a mental filter/lens which either helps us see things clearer or blurer. If I have not gone through the 1st incident, my eyes would not be opened to similar incidents. If there was no awareness, my tiny brain will not be “infested” and my heart will not be infected by fear - fear of failing, fear of stumbling & sinning, fear of hurting others.
Yet deep down in me there was this voice that said ’Remember “All things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose”?’ The experience was bad and it became like a shadow that I could never shake it off, followed me wherever I went, but there remains a mysterious outcome, which the Creator of the Universe guaranteed that it will be good.
As I seek solace in the love of God through His Word, my tiny but active brain was drawn to the what my cheeky friend said - I am committed to you and this friendship. I was blessed because my greatest fear is when others know about me, they will not want to have me as a friend so I rather not disclose too much. But having said it all, pretense is no longer required and is a great relief to me. And when I was searching on something on the internet, I found the following
My cheeky fren did what Jonathan did... she encouraged me by accepting me instead of judging me.
I am thankful to God and grateful my cheeky friend.
Yet deep down in me there was this voice that said ’Remember “All things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose”?’ The experience was bad and it became like a shadow that I could never shake it off, followed me wherever I went, but there remains a mysterious outcome, which the Creator of the Universe guaranteed that it will be good.
As I seek solace in the love of God through His Word, my tiny but active brain was drawn to the what my cheeky friend said - I am committed to you and this friendship. I was blessed because my greatest fear is when others know about me, they will not want to have me as a friend so I rather not disclose too much. But having said it all, pretense is no longer required and is a great relief to me. And when I was searching on something on the internet, I found the following
1 Samuel 18
Saul's Jealousy of David
1 After David had finished talking with Saul, Jonathan became one in spirit with David, and he loved him as himself. 2 From that day Saul kept David with him and did not let him return to his father's house. 3 And Jonathan made a covenant with David because he loved him as himself. 4 Jonathan took off the robe he was wearing and gave it to David, along with his tunic, and even his sword, his bow and his belt.
1 Samuel 23:16-18
16 And Saul's son Jonathan went to David at Horesh and helped him find strength in God. 17 "Don't be afraid," he said. "My father Saul will not lay a hand on you. You will be king over Israel, and I will be second to you. Even my father Saul knows this." 18 The two of them made a covenant before the LORD. Then Jonathan went home, but David remained at Horesh.
My cheeky fren did what Jonathan did... she encouraged me by accepting me instead of judging me.
I am thankful to God and grateful my cheeky friend.
2010年5月8日星期六
HE HAS Made Everything Beautiful.....
I was looking at something I wrote but never “published”
I am reminded of Ecclesiastes 3:1 – 11
1 There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven:
2 a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
6 a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.
9 What does the worker gain from his toil? 10 I have seen the burden God has laid on men. 11 He has made everything beautiful in its time.
GOD said He HAS made EVERYTHING beautiful in its time... and I really have to believe that HE HAS indeed made all things beautiful ....
Just when I decided to “drop out of the friendship game” and move on after having tried so hard, cried so much and hurt so bad and let God have His Way, things took an unexpected turn.
God gave me another friend. It’s strange how we became friends. I wanted to get to know this person yet I wanted to “stay out” of friendship(as past issues never “fail” to haunt me) while at the back of my mind there was “mission” to accomplish. It’s “strange” how God, within such a short time, breakdown the wall I built to protect myself when He placed this friend in my life.
Then, one of my “old” fren wrote to me saying that she actually drafted an email to me wanting to ask me not to leave the friendship, but decided to delete bcos it was too mushy. Strangely when this thing happen on Monday/Tuesday, there was no excitement in me instead I felt very sad. I could not feel my heart or rather I wonder if it has hardened itself. I wondered why we do not appreciate/treasure another until we lose or about to lose that one person? A time to heal.. a time to kill... a time to tear down..a time to build...I found no answer to my “whys” except to trust in the ONE who said HE HAS made everything beautiful in its time. And as I learn to trust in HIM who has made everything beautiful in its time, I am reminded of the song...
Is no fun going thru all these as many wonder what planet have i come from, am thankful that HE who Made everything beautiful is faithful.
2008... has it left you without any memories?.
For me.. it was suppose to b a significant year.
2008 - A year where by I was kept in the quiver.. A year whereby God gave me back what I had lost after I decided that He knows what is best for me and let Him have His Way. It was a year whereby God opened a way for me to pray for colleagues ; invite colleagues to church and "commanding" my family to "sit quietly" to watch a Christian DVD.
And it was a year whereby God brought someone, back from NZ for holidays, to remind me good friends are hard to come by.. treasure them and to stand by them. To not focus on the "bad" but on their "good".
And truly.. this was the year that I was thankful to God for as it marked the 10th anniversary for my friendship with a few friends. Though there were no celebration.. no party to "commemorate", still deep within my heart, I am thankful that God gave me wonderful friends. Despite of my pecularities, they had been my friends and are still my friends
I am reminded of Ecclesiastes 3:1 – 11
1 There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven:
2 a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
6 a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.
9 What does the worker gain from his toil? 10 I have seen the burden God has laid on men. 11 He has made everything beautiful in its time.
GOD said He HAS made EVERYTHING beautiful in its time... and I really have to believe that HE HAS indeed made all things beautiful ....
Just when I decided to “drop out of the friendship game” and move on after having tried so hard, cried so much and hurt so bad and let God have His Way, things took an unexpected turn.
God gave me another friend. It’s strange how we became friends. I wanted to get to know this person yet I wanted to “stay out” of friendship(as past issues never “fail” to haunt me) while at the back of my mind there was “mission” to accomplish. It’s “strange” how God, within such a short time, breakdown the wall I built to protect myself when He placed this friend in my life.
Then, one of my “old” fren wrote to me saying that she actually drafted an email to me wanting to ask me not to leave the friendship, but decided to delete bcos it was too mushy. Strangely when this thing happen on Monday/Tuesday, there was no excitement in me instead I felt very sad. I could not feel my heart or rather I wonder if it has hardened itself. I wondered why we do not appreciate/treasure another until we lose or about to lose that one person? A time to heal.. a time to kill... a time to tear down..a time to build...I found no answer to my “whys” except to trust in the ONE who said HE HAS made everything beautiful in its time. And as I learn to trust in HIM who has made everything beautiful in its time, I am reminded of the song...
"As I looked back on this road I've travelled
I see so many times He carried me through
If there's one thing I have learned in my life
My Redeemer is Faithful and True
My Redeemer is Faithful and True
Everything He has said He will do
And every morning His mercies are new
My Redeemer is Faithful and True
My heart rejoices when I read the promise
"There is a place I am preparing for you"
I know some day I'll see my Lord face to face
My Redeemer is Faithful and True
My Redeemer is Faithful and True
Everything He has said He will do
And every morning His mercies are new
My Redeemer is Faithful and True
And in every situation
He has proved His Love to me
when I lack the understanding
He gives more grace to me"
Is no fun going thru all these as many wonder what planet have i come from, am thankful that HE who Made everything beautiful is faithful.
2010年4月29日星期四
When you believe...
Was bombarding my tiny brain with this song for many nights...hoping that it lift up my spirit.. hoping for a miracle. As I was sitting in front of my laptop listening to the song again, a few minutes ago, it suddenly dawned on me - tho the 2 singers sang so well...tho they sang with their hearts, looked what happen to them?
Many nights, we've prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts, a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now, we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we knew we could
(Chorus 1:)
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow, you will
You will when you believe
In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hopes seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
Yet, now, I'm standing here
My heart so full I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say
Is it true that it is so simple that there can be miracles when you believe? Looks to me that God is reminding me that it is not simply when you believe but who you believe in. Don't be deceived cos we can believe in many things but only when hope is in Him, then there is real hope.
Many nights, we've prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts, a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now, we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we knew we could
(Chorus 1:)
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow, you will
You will when you believe
In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hopes seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
Yet, now, I'm standing here
My heart so full I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say
Is it true that it is so simple that there can be miracles when you believe? Looks to me that God is reminding me that it is not simply when you believe but who you believe in. Don't be deceived cos we can believe in many things but only when hope is in Him, then there is real hope.
2010年2月16日星期二
Point of Grace...
Experiences either make or break us. How can we ensure that it always make but never break us? How do we encourage those going through tough times?
Does it help just telling them God never waste the things He has allowed you to go through?
Or maybe tell them it is but temporal and there is light at the end of the tunnel. Oh, just tell them I will keep you in prayer, brother/sister.
Will we give more?
Oh.. I can't. I have my work commitment. I am inadequate. My family needs my time. Its their fault that they got themselves into such a situation, so why bother. He/she has gone through this so many times, never learnt, he/she does not deserve any help. This person has many friends, so surely there was helped rendered. All so valid..so true.
I found comfort in this song "The Point of Grace" by Dennis Jernigarn -
When the fire of life leaves you so dry, that your eyes have no tears left to cry. When heartache leads you wondering why, wondering how you will survive.
And when you've grown too tired to run this race, find your strength is gone without a trace. when you reached that lonely desperate place. child, you have reached your point of grace.
I will meet you there, when your striving end and I will hold you there in my embrace. And you will find a place where true joy begins when you reached the Point of Grace. When you reached the Point of Grace.
When your hopes and dreams begin to fade, disappointment clouding all the plans you havemade. Feeling lonely broken and afraid, Seem so long since you seen the light of day.
When it seem life every trial you face, lead you one step closer to the place when you fall away, you reach for my embrace child you have reached the point of Grace.
Just let go and you will see. Just mighty what love can be. Child, your greatest strength is when you are weak. Looking up from your brokenness to me.
I will meet you there ....
Though all I gotten were accusation, judgements,criticisms... the Lord's assurance, comfort cheers me n led me on.... Though tough times are not nice times, they are my points of Grace.
Does it help just telling them God never waste the things He has allowed you to go through?
Or maybe tell them it is but temporal and there is light at the end of the tunnel. Oh, just tell them I will keep you in prayer, brother/sister.
Will we give more?
Oh.. I can't. I have my work commitment. I am inadequate. My family needs my time. Its their fault that they got themselves into such a situation, so why bother. He/she has gone through this so many times, never learnt, he/she does not deserve any help. This person has many friends, so surely there was helped rendered. All so valid..so true.
I found comfort in this song "The Point of Grace" by Dennis Jernigarn -
When the fire of life leaves you so dry, that your eyes have no tears left to cry. When heartache leads you wondering why, wondering how you will survive.
And when you've grown too tired to run this race, find your strength is gone without a trace. when you reached that lonely desperate place. child, you have reached your point of grace.
I will meet you there, when your striving end and I will hold you there in my embrace. And you will find a place where true joy begins when you reached the Point of Grace. When you reached the Point of Grace.
When your hopes and dreams begin to fade, disappointment clouding all the plans you havemade. Feeling lonely broken and afraid, Seem so long since you seen the light of day.
When it seem life every trial you face, lead you one step closer to the place when you fall away, you reach for my embrace child you have reached the point of Grace.
Just let go and you will see. Just mighty what love can be. Child, your greatest strength is when you are weak. Looking up from your brokenness to me.
I will meet you there ....
Though all I gotten were accusation, judgements,criticisms... the Lord's assurance, comfort cheers me n led me on.... Though tough times are not nice times, they are my points of Grace.
What's Love After All??
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.1 Cor13 :4
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 1 Cor 13:8
And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'Matt 22 :39
"If you love me, you will obey what I command.
Jn 14: 15
My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you.
Jn 15:12
This is my command: Love each other.
Jn 15:17
The bible is so full of verses that about love. But what is love really? Was it all about I love you and you love me and we both feel good? Is it about I love you because you have something that I do not have, so I hope that when I love you you can give me that which I do not have? Or is it really about loving another just because God said so and I choose to do so?
I always hear others telling me if you do not love yourself no one will. Was that why God said love your neighbour as yourself??? If we do not love ourselves, then we will not be able to love others, so therefore there will not be any love because we do not have the ability to love since we can't even love ourselves. Hmmm.... what a thought.
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 1 Cor 13:8
And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'Matt 22 :39
"If you love me, you will obey what I command.
Jn 14: 15
My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you.
Jn 15:12
This is my command: Love each other.
Jn 15:17
The bible is so full of verses that about love. But what is love really? Was it all about I love you and you love me and we both feel good? Is it about I love you because you have something that I do not have, so I hope that when I love you you can give me that which I do not have? Or is it really about loving another just because God said so and I choose to do so?
I always hear others telling me if you do not love yourself no one will. Was that why God said love your neighbour as yourself??? If we do not love ourselves, then we will not be able to love others, so therefore there will not be any love because we do not have the ability to love since we can't even love ourselves. Hmmm.... what a thought.
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